Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Seriously Lord? You want ME to be a "blogger"?

Anyone that knows me, knows that I am not short on words. Some people have asked me if I had a blog and have been "shocked" that I (until today) did not! However, when I recently put on facebook that I wanted information on blogging I received both "sweet"/encouraging information AND comments like "Oh my gosh...help us!"

But - this blogging idea, I truly believe, is not my own.

Two weeks ago, as we were preparing for our oldest daughter to marry her prince (my son-in-law ROCKS), my husband was fired from his job of several years. I could use a "prettier" word to describe it but - let's stick with the truth...it was a FIRING! While we were not completely surprised (it hadn't been "great" since he obtained a new boss 3 months earlier), we considered the timing (3 days before the wedding) to "stink" (I might be tempted to use another word but - my mom will probably read this!!). Since our goal with the wedding had been to have it be "God honoring and FUN", we decided to focus on the event and "freak out" the following Tuesday - after everyone left down and the event was over!

My first offical "freak out moment" actually didn't occure until exactly two weeks later....I was driving to work and it was the first time that FEAR (of the unknown timeline) gripped me and the tears began to flow. I found myself admitting to God that I wasn't "happy" with this new plan and wondered why we were going through it AGAIN.....you see, we have been down this road twice before...once for 8 months and once for 10. I had "been there, done that, bought the T-shirt, learned a lot and MOVED on!" As I cried out to the Lord and asked "why?", I immediately heard (not outloud - just sweetly in my head), "Cause I want you to share with others what you have learned...and I might just teach you something new along the way." :)

Immediately I thought, "How am I going to share those things with others? I've always been vocal about how You provided during that time...the miraculous ways You loved/supported/provided for us though miracles and other people...what do You want me to do? Use my status updates on facebook?" (some might be tempted to call me a "facebook junkie"!)

Without a single second going by, "Blog" came to my mind. Again, I've never seriously thought of blogging...didn't know a thing about setting one up...and to be honest - really only follow 2 people that do it. But - God put an excitement in my heart to start!

Even if NO ONE ever reads an entry - I know that I would be dis-obedient if I didn't do this. I know that God asked me to keep record of this journey we are on....AGAIN. I know that I'm to fall deeper in love with Him as our PROVIDER...and I know that I'm to make it available to encourage others. God taught me a lot the first two times...mostly about being a support to my husband (what to do/what not to do) and that GOD IS GOOD - ALL THE TIME (even when we can't see His plan).

So...God - this is for you...do with it what YOU will. My desire is to honor you and obey. I will be honest (not that I have to tell you - as you know my heart already but...I'll put it in writing anyway) that there might be days or weeks that all I can do is say "This stinks" or "Ugh". It's in those moments that I'll trust that you will show up BIG TIME...as you ALWAYS have!

Oh my gosh...I'm officially a "blogger"! :)

16 comments:

  1. looking forward to learning from your own experiences with job loss and whatever else comes up on YOUR blog. especially the being a support to your hubby bits. thanks for leading by example, as always.

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  2. so proud of you for following God's prompting! I look forward to reading more about what God is teaching you. I think you and your family are amazing and have much to share with others about how to live out a Christ centered life!

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  3. ahhhh...my first two "groupies"!! :) Thanks girls for the IMMEDIATE response and encouragement...the enemy has a way of attacking right away and as soon as I posted the link on facebook I was "told" - "WHATEVER...people are gonna think you are nuts!" So- thanks for being supportive! It truly is my desire to live the journey well (while being VERY real).

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  4. Welcome to the blog world! I appreciate your heart and obedience to the Lord. I was in this same position (it happened to me) two years ago and it HURTS, STINKS, and is HARD. The Lord took away something (my job) that I was holding on to, I think as a way to show me HE is in charge!

    Can't wait to learn more!!

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  5. If anyone can "blog", it's you! Looking forward to riding along with you during this journey! Hugs, Jenn :)

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  6. I can't think of a better way for you to teach us all what "showing grace and faith during the storm" is all about!

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  7. You are the perfect woman for this! Looking forward to growing deeper in faith WITH you! May God bless this journey in a MIGHTY way!
    Love you...Donna

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  8. I love it when someone "busts a move" in God's direction! You are a champion!!! You ROCK!!! and I love that you are my friend and sister in Christ...and my new Blog buddy!!!

    :-)Keep it up girlie!

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  9. So proud of you!!! Great title, too!

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  10. You are a really engaging writer! This was a joy to read. I can't wait to read more and become even more inspired!

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  11. you have so much to share. i'm glad your a blogger! :)

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  12. My eyes were glazing over reading this! Great way to document the journey. This reminds me that I haven't updated the blog I started for Mando since October 2009!!

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  13. WAY Cool Lori! Can't wait to ready your next entry!

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  14. GO LORI!!!!!!!! Yes, I know you will be writing some awesome things on here and I will be reading!

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